Monday, August 11, 2008

New beginnings

So much has transpired over the last 11 months it's hard to know even where to begin...
The girls are healthy, happy little princess's. Esme is crawling around and Eden is mad that she's not they have 12 teeth between them, and love their food..I am truly blessed to have 3 such wonderful children.

I am a single mother of 3, as I left BD in May..he fell into Drug addiction and offered me no choice but to end our life as a family together. Hard is not the word for the times i have experienced lately, but every time I look in my childrens eyes I get strength that fills me completely. I am hopeful for our future, and hope BD battles his demons to become a great Father in the future...but I will never forgive his actions only be there as a friend and co-parent for our children..he has moved to British Colombia to start his new, sober life , and I wish him luck.

So here I am in a strange land, in a position I never thought I would ever be in. Thankfully I have wonderful friends around me, a great career and perhaps, just perhaps a brighter, better future than I ever imagined.....I never thought this is how my story would end when I started this blog...how bizarre life is indeed.

3 comments:

Laura said...

I am sorry time have been difficult for you. I cannot imagine the pain all those events would cause you. You made the right decision, good for you for being strong for all your children. Congrats on making it 11 months with three little ones. It only gets easier from here.

Laura (monoamniotic.org)

Anta said...

Slw your "story" hasn't ended...it simply has the chance for a new beginning - unexpected, yes, but one that has your children's best interests at heart. I'm sorry that things turned out the way they did for you...these passed months must have been tough on you, yet from your writing I can tell you still have that same fighting, optimistic spirit you had when I first started reading your blog. That's inspiring to see. Your children will be proud of their mother when they are old enough to understand. It shows you that no matter what you are faced with, you still have the strength and willingness to put one foot in front of the other, everyday, and keep on keeping on. Not everyone can say that about themselves and you should be proud of your courage.
I hope BD finds peace, wherever and whatever that may be, and I wish you continued strength as you embark on this new normal.

Anonymous said...

I hope things are going well for you. Oddly enough, you have given me some hope and strength. i am pregnant with twins and have a four year old, and am in a relationship I should get out of, but never feel brave enough to do it. So thanks for the reminder that it will be ok. Other people do the single mom thing all the time, even with twins.